On A Whim and A Fuck It

I have lived an extraordinary life…
I made HUGE life choices on a whim and a “fuck it”…
I’m ready for ordinary.
But to be honest, i have few regrets. Because in the moment, those were the only choices I believed i had.

I’ve never had a future.
I never saw myself 5 years from now.
Not once.
I’ve navigated life through the lens of the past and the now.
And I still do.

I came out of fires I started myself smoldering…
But I came out…
I have a firey spirit with a limp.
But a wounded spirit is not dead.
That has been my spirit.

My spirit does not age.
Only my body.
And the battles I’ve fought all my life rage on.
Because of the limp.
Because of the limp I’m always ready for battle.
Even in the quietest moment.

And at times I use my last energy to squeeze a drop from the rag.
But my happiness is in just being alive with someone to love.
Who would stay if there were no happiness?
I can find it when I need it on a whim and a fuck it.